in part responsible for my expectations
of how this would go.
reality of who i am, how i operate, my history
in part responsible for my behaviors
in how this plays out.
this isn't what i wanted and yet it is
exactly what i've wanted
is how the story goes.
why do i feel like i have no choice
my emotions and feelings
they've been hijacked.
you marched right in, couldn't hold you back
didn't really try to hold you back
i've been passive.
and yet i was fearful, resistant, stubborn, busy
threw you for a loop and then some
you've been patient.
keep feeling like i don't deserve this
like my fairytale isn't fair
you are so good.
coming to terms with the way
i feel about this story
it is so good.
finally said those big words, finally
driving me crazy in silence
release is so good.
the future is unknown, of course
ambiguity, expectancy, hope
come what may.
still, regardless of the outcome
i'm in it for the long haul
that's just the way.
these feelings didn't come easy
don't die easy, baby
it's not just for play.
Posts
No comments:
Post a Comment