tootun lotzafun

This had me absolutely crying I was laughing so hard at work yesterday. Why? I guess it was time for a good release in the environment that has had me somewhat paralyzed for the last few months. Yes, I can honestly say that I'm settling in at work. No, my guard isn't down. Yes, I have a lot more to learn. No, I'm no expert. Yes, I still need lots of help with really sick patients. But I'm feeling more confident, more established, and more at peace. What a relief!

My nurse educator, which at this stage in my career translates to my boss, was joking around about this being a patient's name: two ton lots of fun. She wondered how it could be spelled phonetically so that it wouldn't seem improbable as someone's true name. I just couldn't stop laughing. I had to compose myself so that I could go see one of my patients. I mean, who wants their nurse to come in to their room crying? My coworkers have never seen me laugh so hard, so they don't know that once you get me started it's often hard to stop me. I guess if I can be honest it wasn't so much that her joke was funny, although it was, but it was so nice to be included in a joke at work and be at a place were I can truly be uninhibited in this way at work.

I can't say that I've arrived to the point I go to work without any apprehension, but yesterday was definitely an encouraging day all around. If I ever have a patient named Tootun Lotzafun, you can bet I'll be crying and rolling on the floor because I'm laughing so hard.