4 months

120 days.
4 months.
1/3 of a year.

Such a short and yet a really long time.

It's how long I've been in Atlanta as of this week. I think this weekend I went through a mid-transition crisis. I've wrestled fairly intensely with myself this week. Probably won't be the last time in this journey either.

I went to a concert last night with a few friends and stayed out too late for a 7 am class. The opening act was better than the main. Funny how that works out. Griffin House hails from Nashville and was without his band last night, so it was an acoustic set. No frills. Just raw music. I really liked him. Then we waited for a while for the main attraction- Xavier Rudd. He's Australian and is mostly a one man-band. Didgeridoos and all. Not acoustic. And quite the crowd that he drew- I figured that out while wandering around in between sets. I think it was the first time since I've left SF that I've felt like I was smoking pot the smoke was so thick. I didn't think you could light up in the venue, but evidently other people thought differently. There were smashed crowd members, girls dancing on stage at the end... It didn't feel like any other ATL experience I've had up to this point. But it was a gentle reminder that some of the elements that I miss about SF can be found here. I'm talking about the culture and environment of SF- the things that I didn't always participate in or benefit from- that is pervasive there. The stuff that at first I was amazed by and slightly uncomfortable with that in the end I took for granted until it's now gone. Needless to say it was a fun night.

I have to say that I thought I'd be further along in my settling in by this point. I've spent the last few days trying to figure out why it's not the case. It's multi-factorial, and I know there are some things that I have the power to speed up. But despite the slow adjustment, I'm doing fine. I wrote in one of my first entries about how I tend to be one-sided in how I share the details of my life. I am resolving once again to share the good times and the difficult.

So bring on 4 more...