crash

That's how my day started yesterday. I was a little disoriented when I woke up because I had dreamed that my family thought I had an eating disorder. They flew out a doctor that I used to work with at Packard to do a house call and officially diagnose me. I was so angry with them for calling her out. I felt betrayed by her when she did confirm the diagnosis. It was so vivid. I was reminded of how much I miss working with teens with eating disorders.

I got ready for school and took off on my bike. I didn't get far down the road when I crashed my bike. It was silly, but in an effort to get as far over for oncoming cars as I could, my pedal clipped the cement curb, throwing my bike and me to the ground. I managed to come out with only minor scratches and some extra humility because the oncoming cars saw it all. My bike needed some TLC, though, so I proceeded to walk to school. I was reminded to be thankful for the bike that I have and the ability I have to ride it.

We had our first test yesterday in one of our classes and the tension in the room in our classes before the test. It's interesting how diverse we are as a class, yet a test brings together because everyone wants the same thing- to pass and do well. I was reminded of what unites us.

Last night on my way home from bible study, I needed gas. I had to be strategic about it as we're having a mini gas crisis. Many of the gas stations that I could stop at were out. I planned a route that would take me by several so that I would have options. I ended up at QT, along with everyone else. What could have been mass chaos with a lot of frustrated, rude, self-serving people was instead a group of semi-patient, serving people waiting their turn to get gas. It was a little difficult to maneuver getting in and out of the station because there were so many people there, but it was mostly a painless experience. I was reminded that no man is an island.

Yesterday I thought of the movie Crash. It speaks to diversity and the human experience- how none of us are above difficulty and all of us have the ability to discriminate. Most of my day yesterday I watched people come together who normally wouldn't; people having conversations in situations when they would normally keep to themselves. It was a beautiful day- watching the crash.