grow

i thought i could brace myself.

in my head, analyzing every angle.

wondering if there's something i'm missing.

something that will salvage it all.

in an instant, it ended.

no, not really.

more like a little while coming.

still, hard to face reality.

feels surreal and yet so real.

vacation is over.

it's me, on my own.

has it sunk in?

it's definite, this i know.

pain and relief.

sadness and peace.

disappointment and perspective.

being still, alone with God.

feeling freedom and anticipation.

still full of love for you.

now we move on and we grow.