kicked my butt

Today Jeff kicked my butt. He's a former Army Ranger and he was my trainer today. I liked his no-nonsense, get the job done approach. I've not been in the weight room consistently since early summer, so I'm a little out of shape strength-wise. He pushed me for sure. But it was a good thing. I'm looking forward to being sore. Yes, I'm weird that way.

I'm amazed at times how aggressive and competitive I am. No, it's nothing new, but it's often not that intense. But there were a few things that happened this week that made that side of me come out. When your instructor has to tell you to relax, to not be so intense in your punches and kicks, maybe that's a little too much.

I was selfish today. I wanted something and I didn't get it. It frustrates me. But I need to be ok with it. I need to not let my aggression rise. I had my outlet this morning in my workout. Now I need to sleep on it. There's a reason why things happen or don't. I'm trusting God with that.