all about the benjamins

Going from having a salaried job to babysitting 2 days a week has been tough for many reasons. But one of the most difficult things about it is that I feel guilty for spending money because I'm not really earning any. Moving is expensive. Driving around Atlanta trying to network and come by job opportunities is expensive. Buying books, equipment, and supplies for school is expensive. I can't even begin to think about the loans that I'm taking out to go back to school.

I know the economy is tough on everyone right now. I know there are many people out there who don't have what I have. I know this is big girl, real world financial stuff I'm facing. I'm not complaining. But I will be honest and say that I think I'm more concerned about my finances now than I ever have been, and I don't want to be. I want to be a good steward of my resources, but I don't want to have to make every decision based on how much it costs. I want to live within my means, but I also want to be able to be generous to those around me. I'm willing to accept that as a student, things will probably be tight for the next 4 years. But I don't want to be ruled by my bank account. I'm going to have to figure out how to make it not all about the benjamins.